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Re: Wow- Something Really Great Happened Today!

Postby Pashernate_Lover » Sat Dec 06, 2008 8:08 pm

I have been depressed beyond belief the last 7 months- in my life there have been some low lows but I have a generally sunny personality (probably because so many low lows make your appreciate when things are even vaguely better), but I have not been able to do the one thing that holds my life in place for so long that I knew not what to do but cry and pull into myself more and more each day. WELL- last night was the lowest of all, I could not have felt worth any less than I did, my passion for being alive has been missing for so long I don't even know why I get out of bed in the morning anymore and I got sick of it. I have always physically challenged myself to the highest extreme I could find but I cannot even jog anymore let alone run (my most consistent passion throughout my life), and I have literally never been able to be so physical in the last 7 months that my forehead stopped being cool and dry, so I picked myself up (in my pajamas) and took myself to the gym! I couldn't do much, but my muscles got to remember what they were for again, and I couldn't 'break a sweat', but it really lifted my spirits beyond all belief. I want to do that every single night until I have my next surgery because I want to remember what it feels like to have passion in life again and I feel like that is a very Caity step in the right direction.
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"P.S. Bring Me Home And Have Me!"
Leather elbows on a tweed coat
-Oh!-
Is THAT the best you can do ?
So came his reply :
"But on the desk is where I want you!"
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Re: Wow- Something Really Great Happened Today!

Postby helmoz » Sat Dec 06, 2008 10:00 pm

i really feel for you pash, especially as a few years ago i hurt my back and couldn't do much as a result, and it really really got me down. i'm glad that you're starting to get back on your feet now - it will get better! *sends hugs*
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Re: Wow- Something Really Great Happened Today!

Postby Pashernate_Lover » Tue Dec 09, 2008 11:03 pm

I applied for a long shot grant and I got it!!! Not for much, but for some!
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"P.S. Bring Me Home And Have Me!"
Leather elbows on a tweed coat
-Oh!-
Is THAT the best you can do ?
So came his reply :
"But on the desk is where I want you!"
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Re: Wow- Something Really Great Happened Today!

Postby Lorimoz » Wed Dec 10, 2008 4:06 pm

Pashernate_Lover wrote:I applied for a long shot grant and I got it!!! Not for much, but for some!


Congrats for the grant and well done for the motivation and determination.
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Re: Wow- Something Really Great Happened Today!

Postby Pashernate_Lover » Wed Dec 10, 2008 6:33 pm

Thanks, Lori! Thats really sweet :)
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"P.S. Bring Me Home And Have Me!"
Leather elbows on a tweed coat
-Oh!-
Is THAT the best you can do ?
So came his reply :
"But on the desk is where I want you!"
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Re: Wow- Something Really Great Happened Today!

Postby chicken » Sat Dec 13, 2008 5:12 am

Pash: despite my absence, I was really worried about you. (there might even be a poem about it :wink: )
So glad to hear your good news, grants can be tricky things to secure. Care to share any details?
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Re: Wow- Something Really Great Happened Today!

Postby Pashernate_Lover » Sun Dec 14, 2008 7:06 am

Future teacher award- $500 dollars of pure bliss... even though I have to have my picture put on a website and sent out on Christmas cards :oops: . I got it because all of the evaluators were 'really inspired by me and were happy to see the financial need that made me a good choice' :)
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"P.S. Bring Me Home And Have Me!"
Leather elbows on a tweed coat
-Oh!-
Is THAT the best you can do ?
So came his reply :
"But on the desk is where I want you!"
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Re: Wow- Something Really Great Happened Today!

Postby chicken » Sun Dec 14, 2008 3:40 pm

Awesome, Future Teacher! In my head, I can see students raising their hand "Oh, Miss Pashy, I know the answer! Miss Pashy, Miss Pashy!!" :D
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Re: Wow- Something Really Great Happened Today!

Postby Pashernate_Lover » Tue Dec 16, 2008 9:05 am

Ha! I wish! My poor students have had to live through lessons about the Sex Pistols, vampires and zombies, straight edge, lying stealing cheating teens, zombie rabbits invading Santa Cruz... heh, poor kids!
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Re: Wow- Something Really Great Happened Today!

Postby Cracked Pleasures » Wed Dec 17, 2008 7:37 pm

Pashernate_Lover wrote:Ha! I wish! My poor students have had to live through lessons about the Sex Pistols, vampires and zombies, straight edge, lying stealing cheating teens, zombie rabbits invading Santa Cruz... heh, poor kids!

Damn, if only my school days were as interesting as that! I think you would make an awesome teacher, you got a lot of positive energy and that alone works positively and motivating towards most people.


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Re: Wow- Something Really Great Happened Today!

Postby chicken » Wed Dec 17, 2008 11:09 pm

Pashernate_Lover wrote:zombie rabbits invading Santa Cruz... heh, poor kids!


OMG. As a teacher, you'd prolly have to kick my butt out of class for having far too much fun with things like that!!
CP is right, if only my school days were as interesting as that!

Pash, if I had kids, I'd be happy to know you were one of their teachers. Seriously.
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Re: Wow- Something Really Great Happened Today!

Postby rubygirl » Sun Dec 21, 2008 1:54 pm

Yah, me too :)

And great step, going to the gym. Physical excercise really helps you feel better when depressed. I know from experience. Though it's not easy to do them, because of the general lack of desire for anything...but if you start, the efforts defintely pay.
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Re: Wow- Something Really Great Happened Today!

Postby Pashernate_Lover » Sat Jan 10, 2009 1:30 am

Annoyingly, my roomie decided to move out... again... she is a weird girl. BUT, when I was interviewing possible housemates, one of them ended up being a positive old acquaintance who will be moving out in enough time for my boyfriend to move in... as in when May hits, we finally get to live together! Yay!!!
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"P.S. Bring Me Home And Have Me!"
Leather elbows on a tweed coat
-Oh!-
Is THAT the best you can do ?
So came his reply :
"But on the desk is where I want you!"
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Re: Wow- Something Really Great Happened Today!

Postby rubygirl » Sun Jan 11, 2009 11:21 pm

Pash, that's wonderful! great for you, and this time will pass rather quickly :) especially when you know something good is awaiting you (:
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Re: Wow- Something Really Great Happened Today!

Postby Boxguy » Wed Jan 21, 2009 2:25 am

After eight grueling years, it's finally, finally over!

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